in recovery

I’m leaving tumblr for a while to focus on recovery because I just realized this past weekend that I am still not okay in neither the drug nor eating aspect of my life. I have disrespected my body and have continued to do so while lying to everyone saying things were getting better.
Unfollow or continue following, whatever floats your boat, but I’m not sure when I’ll be back since social media, especially tumblr, has been been a huge trigger in my life.
I strongly encourage those who I have talked to about recovery on tumblr continue on the path to a better life: free of drugs and eating without regrets.
Take care.


Letting go is never easy. Moving on never feels “right”. But if we continue to hold onto our past and let it define us; then there is no real chance of moving forwards and discovering what our futures may hold.

"   The only beautiful thing about eating disorders is when a sufferer starts recovery.   "
(via nearlyfre-ed)
"   The only way out of an eating disorder is to go through recovery. Which often isn’t nice. Or pleasant. Or easy. But it is necessary.   "
(via grabbing-onto-life)
"   You didn’t just lose weight.
The weight was incomparable.
Incomparable to the hair,
The bone density and the passion.
Incomparable to the smile on your face and the glimmer in your eyes.
Totally irrelevant, in comparison to the nails and the teeth; even the nutrients in your blood slowly wasted away until your heart could barely beat.
That little heart kept fighting, for you, though.
It struggled on beat by beat and so should you.
Why? Because there’s no adulation in anorexia.
There’s no congratulations or looks of admiration. There are just blank stares from the people who once knew you, looking at your broken shell.
There’s no fucking medal or badge of honour. It’s not impressive.
But what is impressive? Standing tall, healthy and proud, saying ‘yes, I have anorexia nervosa. But it doesn’t have me anymore’.   "
Remember what it took from you. (via untanglingamy)